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i'm baaaack   
11:50pm 12/08/2005
 
mood: there's nothing to eat!!
music: POD- will you
So yeah after almost a year i'm writing back, well it's just that i really liked reading what had happenned to me before, so maybe i'll keep on writing, it's just that i'm to lazy to keep it going.

Now we finally are an item! yeah, he asked me on my bday (nov 26), and we've been dating for more than a year now, things aren't perfect, but i really love him and i just hope we can keep this going, i need him so much, his the only person that sometimes completly understands me, although sometimes is the word that worries me, coz sometimes he can be the most stubborn person in the world, the most immature also.

Anywyas, that's all.		  
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Second Break up... and made up??   
11:36pm 17/09/2004
 
mood: bouncy
music: AFI - Death of seasons
Well... yeah. So, after three days school started we made up. Well i kinda walked up to him, coz he wasn't going to say anything, so we were ok, again.

And well... everything was fine, till well, he once again, could say, dumped me... yeah.

And right now we made up... again. I think this is so... infuriating how i keep on forgiving him and stupid also. But well what the hell!!

I'm happy that's all that matters.

Because everything is worth it... even the pain... everything is worth it.		  
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Yup, free?   
12:57am 05/08/2004
 
mood: blah
music: nothin'
So... 52 and i kinda broke up... yeah i t really is pathetic how we broke up when we haven't even got it started, anyways...

it's been 2 weeks since he dumped me, and i ain't heartbroken... just a little sore. Maybe that's because i always knew it would end, but i always wondered how.

So... nothing much to talk about. Gone camping 3 days, IT ROCK!! IT WAS SO DAMN FUN!!

Starting to be confused about other guy, that told me "HOw can i kill someone so sweet?" Yeah that totally freaked me out, coz i dunno what he meant by that... oh well.

I guess that's all for 2day, the song that fits perfectly the situation btween 52 and i is: Sugarcult "Memory"

::Oyasumi Nasai::		  
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Nighty night and A.F.I ROCKS!!   
02:18am 03/07/2004
 
mood: cheerful
music: AFI - Your name here
"I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls.
Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing bright before descent
and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me.
And I don't want to die tonight; will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light.
Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?
I don't want to die tonight"

And that's why i love A.F.I!!! That song totally rocks!! yeah.. well sorry 'bout that, it's just that i love that song and well i got a little carried away... anyways...

Now to talk 'bout my exciting day! I did nothing! yup and besides that, i'm sick! i am really pathetic.

Well, there's nothing much to say, so nighty night.		  
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N07h1ng 70 d0!!   
02:33am 01/07/2004
 
mood: sleepy
music: AFI - Last caress and Unwritten law -lonesome
So here i am... again... mmm, i was thinking of going to sleep but i don't feel like it so i'll beter start writing this thing.

Anyways, i'm on summer vacations right now, i'll go back to school in august 15th or so, and i have nothing to do, really i need to get a life, today i don't expect to anything, i got a call from a friend - her name is paty - monday and i forgot to call her back, i'll probably call her today to see if we go out or something.

Also, yesterday HE - i'm not saying his name 'coz it feels weird, let's call him 52, k? - came to my house, we were going to go out but he came to damn late!! and i had japanese lesson so i couldn't go out, and well i made him come, i mean he lives like three hours away and still he wasn't mad at me?! He said he was dissapointed 'coz he wanted to gou out with me, but that besides that everything was ok. Really, i'm an annoyance i can't date him officially, i mean my parents would freak out, and i have to be home before 6:00 pm, and... and i can't even tell my friends whats reallly going on, i mean... they hate him. The said the just don't like him, but i know them, they really hate him... i must confess that i also kinda disliked him once... before i got to knew him.

Anyways we dtayed at the door of my house -out- and just sat there... saying nothing, i was very comfotable, i mean i don't care if we have nothing to talk about -we saw each other the day before that so it was kinda lame to ask "what did you do yesterday?" - anyways, we did nothing and at 3:30 he said he had to go... hehehe i didn't let him, at least not until he kissed me. What can i say, i really like to be kissed by him.

And today he called to see if we were gonna go to the the concert, and well i told him my parents didn't let me. I lied... kinda. I mean i didn't asked my parents, to be honest i forgot, but still if i had asked them, they would have said no... he really sounded dissapointed... again. Really i can't do anything to make him happy, man this sucks, oh! and besides that he's not my boyfiend, yup that's right... well he kinda is but he hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend, maybe he thinks it's implicit, if we are dating then we are a couple? Am i being to childish by wanting him to ask me formaly? Geez...

Well i'm sleepy so i'm off to bed.

Oyasumi nasai (good night)

Characters introduced 2day:

Paty: girl friend form junior high, she's one of my best friends, later on she'll come into the scene.

"52": The guy i like. The guy i'm dating. The guy that will be the topic here most of the time, The guy that can't decide hat the hell we are!!		  
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Starting... this   
02:17am 01/07/2004
 
mood: blank
music: The drakness - Love is only a feeling
Well, here's like me intro; i'll be talking mostly to myself and well you're free to say whatever you think 'bout the stuff that's going on my life, mostly it'll be fluffy-cheesy stuff because that's a thing i'm uncomfortable talking with people about so, writing is a kind of realease.... anyways, i'll start maybe tomorrow, ya know, her on mexico it's pretty late.		  
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